Who You Are
Sunday, January 1, 2012
, 1:35 PM
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It's my birthday today, i won't say i'm feeling the best there ever is, it's a brand new year though... In the past years, all i've seen are people, people complaining about who they are not and who they can't be; only complimenting the wonderful side of others and not seeing the beauty within themselves, i wonder why. I, for once, have the same feeling too. Over the years, i've heard people often say that i have such a wonder date as a birthday but, somehow, i've never seem to see the "special" in it. I always envy those people with birth dates on a normal day, a birth date on a schooling week. They get to be able to share it well with the friends around them as everyone will be free, everyone will be there. I've often wonder, why do i have the feeling like i'm being left out, like i'm not part of them; i want to be part of them. As time past, i start to wonder, why put in so much to be something you're not? We often place our self-esteem so lowly compared to others, why so? are we not good enough? We are who we are, and we are all special in our own way. We don't have what others do because that is what makes us an individual, different from others, special. If everyone were to be the same, what good will that do? what beauty will life have for us? For all i know, we are different and that's what makes us connect to one another, to understand each other, to know what is it like to have another here. It's true some of us won't be as great nor as wanted as the others, but you're always needed, this might not be your place but the world is filled with empty spaces just waiting for you to fill it. You are who you are and that's what makes us special. Different isn't bad, indifferent is. |
Dear Cookie,
Sunday, December 4, 2011
, 12:41 AM
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I know you probably won't read this at all, but maybe someday you might read it.
I know it's tough for you,as i keep on bugging you on and on, especially when you are busy.
I might not be the one out there for you, but i hope i might be someday.
It actually hurts real bad, knowing that it'll never be.
I know i'm not the best out there, I know i'm not your type.
I was stupid last time, for treating you the way you shouldn't be treated.
I should have told you the truth, but i was an idiot.
I'm an idiot to follow words that aren't supposed to be followed.
I should have went back and told you what you assume was wrong.
I should have chased you back.
I should have been there for you when you were in pain.
But i was an idiot to think that staying away was the only answer.
I was just a coward, afraid of the pain held inside.
I was selfish, only caring about myself and neglected you.
On and off, i told you how i felt about you.
But every time i ended up backing away, because i was scared about the truth.
Time and time i tried talking to you, speaking out little by little.
Somehow, it doesn't seem to be going far, have i ever crossed your mind?
There are times where i'm even afraid to start a conversation with you.
I'm afraid i might disturb you, I'm afraid of you finding me annoying.
Several times I've tried, tho it was always in a jokingly manner or at times, a serious manner;
I've always taken it seriously, and each time i heard your reply, was each time i broke myself.
I'm really sorry for the wrong things that I've done, the times I've hurt you, neglected you, or ignored you.
I apologize for all the bads that I've done.
You've taught me much over the times, and i thank you for helping me whenever i'm in trouble.
I know it might not be, but i just hope you'll know.
I really wish that time would turn back, but it's never happening huh?
I guess all that's left is a 'regret'.
I really love you, i really do.
I know i might be bugging you from time to time, i promise i won't disturb when you're busy no more.
I guess i'll be staying, but i'll be hiding;
One might be there, but the others just ain't.
I hope that you'll accept my apology, i'm really sorry.
You've taught me 'never to give a chance, but only accept if it's true'
I love you, and i'm here to stay.
But, will you?
I hope so, but you can't force it, right?
I guess i'll end it here, i'm sorry if this bothered you or wasted your time.
But i hope you understand, I'm sure you will right?
*4th Dec note:
And look what i've found after reading through my old posts. LOL
I'm here to stay and wait for you,
I've made up my mind;
I love you,
And it'll be.
<3
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New Outlook, sexayyyy
, 12:21 AM
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Ah, as said in the tittle, blogger has a new outlook. Doesn't look too shabby, looks kinda good actually. I personally would not have noticed this new outlook if it wasn't for my boredom before sleep, just had this crazy idea of visiting my dead blog and BAM! new look, just like that. There won't be much update anymore or never will i update again. So...officially dead? :) |
Break down monology
Friday, September 30, 2011
, 11:12 PM
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A sudden rang, it has been long, long since I've stopped by. A place filled with memories, broken, shattered, thrown and heart warming pasts flooded with laughter and joy; it was a long ride. A long way ahead, but you still rest in my memories, just like the haunt of a sad tale. I'm no strong person, i still find myself lost and broken, unable to tell you what i had inside all these time...till the time comes.
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Going away...
Monday, July 18, 2011
, 2:42 PM
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It's been long, my blog's dead and there shouldn't be any readers by now but what the heck. There were a few things running through my mind this year, but lets just say the nightmare might just be over. All i can say is, i cherish this moment very much and along with all you wonderful friends. I'll never take a moment for granted again. Time flies as well, you seem to be fine too; I hope it continues. Soon we'll be 17 and then 18, I hope what you told me last year wasn't true, if you still remember, wouldn't want to see you go. Anyways, it's about time i stop blabbering and start studying.
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A Taste of Freedom
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
, 7:15 PM
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Lets start this off with something every student loves and every teacher hates, MID-TERM'S OVER! My mid-term has been going on for 11days, excluding Saturdays and Sundays, and trust me, it was very very very boring. Since it's over now, time to sit back, relax, enjoy time....LIKE A BOUSE. Exams are pretty much a okay, hopefully I get wonderful results which will eventually lead to wonderful "wants" >:) I guess I'll be quite busy after exams though, with a friend's party coming up this Thursday, and I won't be around for 4days during the 1st week of holidays, going to a camp by the way. Guess it's all play time now, no time to be touching this blog here as I need to be socializing with em' friends. Will update regularly, if possible.
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Why....
Sunday, May 15, 2011
, 8:17 PM
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It's sad to say that I didn't study today, at all. Woke up at 10 and started playing my game till 8pm. That's kinda sick. Quite relived to know that Physics Paper 3 wasn't tomorrow tho, as I thought it was, so hopefully Add Maths will be a breeze, same goes to English. I still get this stupid upset feeling around me, bullshit.
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Sorry..
, 12:41 AM
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I was never any good at cheering, nor making happiness; Yet I try so very hard to make you happy. Everything I do usually ends in failure, lack of courage; Yet I would tell myself to stay strong. I usually fail the people around me, can't seem to make things right; Yet I work harder. With every misfortune happens, all that could be told and done was a "sorry". But, does it fix anything? All I can think of telling you now is sorry, for all the mistakes, all the immaturity, I'm to be fault. Every failure was always ended with a simple "sorry". But does this "sorry" cure what is done? Is this "sorry" all so almighty, but all I could say was a sorry. If things were to be re-written, I wouldn't re-write any. For all the mistakes I've done, I feel so helpless, but just a "sorry". I guess, for all that I apologize for, is just all that I can do. Maybe I'm the sorry one. But with everything ever told, nothing will change what's inside, but it all still ends with me having to say, Sorry..
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Send this to all your formspring friends if you support cancer patients! If you don't, you have No Heart. :)
Friday, May 6, 2011
, 7:23 PM
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Send this to all your formspring friends if you support cancer patients! If you don't, you have No Heart. :) |
Updating for no reason at all
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
, 9:41 PM
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I'm actually updating, so before we proceed, please, be thankful =) Today, there's like a basketball 3v3 in school and a football match as well. It's a class against class game, and our class managed to get 2nd for football and 2nd for basketball, with me in it. Overall today was quite a fun day, I might say. Since everyone seems to be bored nowadays, here's a little quiz to tickle your mind a little ;P All you have to do is, answer it, and i'll change it, easy as Teoh Chow Liang =) |
I Love Aurevoirdarling.com because...
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
, 9:57 PM
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It's been awhile, updating for a reason, cause I'm bored and i somehow stumble upon this Aurevoirdarling.com . It seems that Anna Moi >:D is having a competition, and out of boredom I've decided to join. So I'll have to write a entry about "I Love Aurevoirdarling.com because..." , tsk, no biggie. Anna, I Love Aurevoirdarling.com because... I'm pretty much bored, and to make you're competition more exciting I've decided to just join with this all so awesome entry, of course. I also love Aurevoirdarling.com because it has "such" a nice name to it, or maybe just because we used to be in Delphi. Lastly, I'm pretty sure I'll win this because you don't have to post it, you can just pass it; Saves you from them nasty posting fees and also because you owe me those pictures from Bryan's party >:( Owh, and not forgetting, because I actually linked each and every one of the Aurevoirdarling.com =) The End =)
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When you hurt my food
Sunday, January 23, 2011
, 9:04 PM
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Thanks to the all so stupid dentists I would have to go back to them again tomorrow, this time i'm fucking pissed. Messin' with me and my food, them bitches are going to get it. Imagine, the extra wire at the very end, they didn't cut it, leaving it scraping the inner wall of my back cheek as I chew, leaving a bloody two-sided 5cent size ulcer like injury. I'm starving, I can't chew properly, can't eat in peace, every chew is scratching my inner cheek wall, till it's injured and it doesn't stops there. Don't think i'll be eating during recess tomorrow, fuckin' shit. Hopefully I get everything done and have a wonderful Chinese New Year. |
There's a difference between stupidity and brainless
Saturday, January 22, 2011
, 3:46 PM
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I'm not in the mood today, was and still am pretty pissed. What's it about? How bout a clue? Something to do with dentist. I woke up at 11 and I wasted 4 hours right after I woke up, so I was pissed. Simple much? By the way, guess what people? My Unifi will be fixed tomorrow! Can wait to taste the feeling of total un-laggy-ness and the pleasurement of total smoothness. So yea, basketball training tomorrow again, simple normal nothing special. bye!
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A return of the past
Friday, January 21, 2011
, 7:17 PM
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As you'll can see, I'm actually updating my blog due to the boredom occurring around me. Before I talk about school, last start with the things we missed last year =) Christmas was actually pretty normal, didn't receive many gifts. Birthday wasn't anything special, but thank you for those whom wished me, once again. So far, last year Holidays was fine. Now, school isn't that bad despite the fact that i didn't get very good results in PMR and with the school's high expectations, I could not get into the stream I wanted. It's myself to blame though, but my class now is fine as well. Having fun yet feeling tired in school at the same time, I still need time getting use to the timetable though. Well, I guess that's about it. Shall update soon, if possible. Owh yea, I went South Africa in the Holidays as well, and it was a blast! =)
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You the one?
Saturday, September 11, 2010
, 10:05 PM
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So, today was a tiring day. Dad lied to me about the Morib trip and ended up going to KL with cousins. We left at about 11am, and went home about 6pm+ Went to Pavilion, Time Square, Lowyat, Sungei Wang, and i guess that's about it. One of my cousin's from Perak, form5 girl, got lost in Time Square! It was her first time there, and her handphone battery was dead! So, her brother, 25years old, went searching the entire mall, and finally after 30mins+ he finally found her. She was crying, expected tho. Her sister was also crying, 20years old+, she was shocked that her little sister went missing. After that they decided to go back to the hotel, and that's where we parted. That's all for the exciting part of the day. Other's nothing much happen, just that there are so many obese people at KL today. :X Update some other time.
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After so long =\
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
, 2:22 PM
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 Hello readers, it's been long, very long, since I've last updated. Well, the days was okay i might say. Nothing extra ordinary happened though. Went's to Terengganu last week? I was fine, relaxing yet tiring. Won't be a long update, just for Anna and MinLi to read. They'll be like 'yay, updated Finally =.=' and when they get to this part 'wth? -_-' hahah, so I guess i'll fill ya'll in with the details before the Holiday ends? If not, then maybe after PMR, as there aren't many readers now, so I can relax and slow down a little =) See ya,
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Rants
Monday, June 14, 2010
, 12:05 AM
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Will update tomorrow =) There might be a special rant on something tho. Might be in video form or might be in the old school text/words
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You
Friday, June 11, 2010
, 10:24 PM
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As many of ya'll know, I went Pyramid today with Andrew, Aloy, Ann Ann, Bryan, Hoenam & Meijun. Well, we watch;  The A-Team! Wootz, 5/5! Comedy, and Action packed baby! We went for pool after the show, guess what? Fuiwern showed up! yay! Made my day =) Meijun was like super friendly? That's a good thing, but wow i didn't know that xD So I just wangan 1 game, and lost =.= Made the last turn, i tot the stupid computer wasn't behind, So i song song relax turn ni, then he caught up and win in like 20m left =.= Went home at 6.30, Stuck to the computer, ate dinner alone. And here am i now blogging and signing off here =)
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Training Training Training
Sunday, June 6, 2010
, 10:37 PM
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 Watched Prince of Persia today,Great show, Rating it; 5/5! =D Went to Summit today, it was okay. After movie, dad said i need a new casual shoe. So he gladly bring me to buy. Woopie!  The Nike Sweet Classic 2009 Exact same color. Then, i'll be going back to Everlast to get another pair or the same kind as my old shoe. I just like it too much =) That's about all, for today =) |
Get LAID!
Friday, June 4, 2010
, 2:38 PM
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Exam's are finally over, here comes holiday! Wow, can't wait to push iSquadx|.MY to top. RIMUP is coming too, must win. Any plan's people?? Invite me yo! I guess outing, sleeping over, Basketball, and Sudden Attack for me. I need more activities =( She also don't wan go out with me hmph! lol x) joking. Guess that's all. see ya.
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Sunway??
Saturday, May 29, 2010
, 12:01 AM
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Went Sunway today =D Wangan-ed and Watched Bounty Hunter, Good show people Good Show =D Please do watch it =D I guess I'm kinda lazy now, so will update some other time. And I EMO!!!! LOL! someone will understand the meaning, Those who don't understand means it's not meant for you.
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Exams!!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
, 9:55 PM
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 Owhhhh Kay! Exams are not bad, kinda taking it easy. Everyday still pass by normally, Nothing stressful happen yet, nothing special going on yet, well, nothing happening is happening. Mid term ends at this Thursday! Then 3 days break! Then JPS! awww >:( I don't really mind JPS, just that there will be Chinese paper 2 again, History again, Geography again, Boo-hoo! As some of you know, I did not write my Chinese Calligraphy =D I din't bring my brush, and thought i could not borrow and *BAM* EMPTY Teacher collected my paper and asked why i din't write, told him and he said: 'Aiyo~ why din't tell me? I help you borrow what. Aiya~' I said: 'Can borrow ah teacher?' Teacher: ' Can, why cannot?' Me: 'Serious?! Haih, nevermind...' Teacher: 'Next time ask teacher help you borrow, can one.' LOL! So that's about it? For the time being =) |
The use of 'Past'? Learn from it
Friday, May 21, 2010
, 10:42 PM
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 Stuffs i read again, for the third time, Always keep at somewhere secret, Read it again just to remember who I am, Just to remember what I've done, But It'll be a change, Farewell to the past, 'You've' thought me well, Thank you. I bet most of you won't get it, Well, wasn't really meant for anyone to get it, So, let it be =) Saw Fuiwern and Cheryl at USJ11 today, =) Can say it made my day. So tired, will be off to bed soon at 11.30 Tomorrow basketball game at 9, wish us luck.
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Exams!
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
, 9:30 PM
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 Preview for Grandmama's Birthday post =D That's my cousin =D fyi; she's 20 i think Chinese and Random subject. Gawd. So, won't be updating so much, will update about my Grandmama's Birthday after Exams. Be patient, My grandma post is worth the wait, she's hot *winks. lol, joking. Got nothing much to say but, EXAM! YAY! If you look closely, the 'YAY' word is actually a pair of crying eyes and 'A' as a wide open mouth with saliva dripping out from both sides =D So bye bye! If there's any love left in this world, I'm still here. The world is filled with love, like mine filling in the little spot. |
Taking it back to when it just begin, baby you dropped your ice-cream
Thursday, May 13, 2010
, 9:17 PM
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School, bored, tired, damn. I need rest yo! Balvinder n Chester should be back from MSSS camp. I bet they improved alot, but i won't lose out! hmph! Damn, I'm not getting a reply, Don't know I'm so down every time I don't see a reply xP Haih, can't seem to get it out of my mind? I sampat la. Kay la whatever, bye! nothing to say, moodless Taking it back to when it just begin, Baby I still love you; But we're not meant to be =)
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When in Rome
Sunday, May 9, 2010
, 10:36 PM
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Went to Summit today, Wanted to watch IP Man 2 but failed as i was under age, So me and my dad ended up watching 'When in Rome'  When in Rome : 4/5 Kristen Bell, She's sweet. =)   Josh Duhamel    Both of em, sweet =DSo, that's about all =) |
Is there a meaning to Love?
Saturday, May 8, 2010
, 8:43 PM
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Well, Woke up early for basketball game today, Against our seniors, can't believe we actually lost. zzz Wasn't that bad actually the game. Finally I got to played ask coach wasn't there, so Balvinder and I kinda took a lil' control over things. Mostly Balvinder, Ryan got injured, but he made a amazing Tap. He tapped Ken while he was about the shoot, and the crowd went *WOW!* while Ken went *WTF?!* I played, intercept a ball while Kok Weng was trying to pass to Poh Hong i think, Fast break-ed and missed lay up =.= Well, i slowed down as i was reaching the slippery part, and i laughed as there are funny memories there. Luckily Balvinder took the rebound and entered it. Entered a ball for 0 degree, 2 pointer. Stole Kok Weng's ball while he was dribbling from behind, xP After that, went Summit as sister and friends went for SU's IR day. Had lunch at McD, saw Seh Wei there. Went to 19 Mall after that, mom bought a hard disk. Went home, online till now. Celebrating Mother's Day tomorrow =) Show your appreciation to your mommy people! Un temps viendra où nous allons effectivement se réunir une fois de plus,et je vais te tenir la main serrée,ne laissant jamais,je ne serai jamais faire la même erreur à nouveauA time will come when we will actually meet again,and I'll hold your hand tightly,never letting go,I'll never make the same mistake again. |
Another Day of Silence
Friday, May 7, 2010
, 12:55 PM
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 Every day goes by the same, over and over again. Life's like that. Skipped school today, cause...cause that's who I am. =) Nothing happening is going on now a days. Quite boring I might say, BUT! Guess what folks! Exams are coming =( According to the paper given, it'll start on the 20th May till 4th of June. It's a 11day exam which makes my mood go *boo-hoo* Guess it's study time =) Can't wait for exam to end, even tho it had not started. =D Plans after exam are filled with 'Tons of Non-Stop Action Packed Fun'! Too much to say too little time, till next time my dear readers. If a wish was given, I would wish to see you one last time
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Sakais...
Sunday, May 2, 2010
, 9:45 PM
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Went to Pyramid and watch Iron Man 2 yesterday with Guan Ren. Just as we were about to enter the Cinema, There was a group of Malays teenagers having a fight outside. And they were like less than a meter away from us. Well, i don't whats their problem, but i had half the mind to watch them fight rather than Iron man. xP  Iron Man 2 Must Watch! Rate : 5/5? 4/5? (about there la) Action packed, funny, and so on. =) Please do watch it, It's a yes yes show, No regrets =D |
Monday, April 26, 2010
, 8:55 PM
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 Medals; USJ11 Trees 4th place(3on3), MSSD 2010 3rd place(5on5), Tanjung Mahsuri(TM) 2nd place(5on5), From, left to right. So, as you all know, we collected your MSSD medals today at school, Teacher pronounced my name wrongly again, =.= I laughed when i heard my name, when i was walking half way, I laugh turn n look back, saw Ryan and all laughing. Teacher pronounced Ryan's name wrongly as well, He pronounced it as Ryan Montero, which is suppose to be Monteiro. After that nothing much happened in class. Except for Brandon saying stupid stuffs about me & someone, He also made Anna cry, cheer up Anna. So that's about all. Be right back =D |
